"Secrets"

Just to give you a little more background into who I am. I am one of those people who really relate to music in a very personal way...when i hear a song that i like i just don't only like it but i associate it with moments in time, moments that capture a particularly memory I want to keep of my life. One of those most current songs is Secrets by One Republic...check out what it means to me...

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

A couple of days ago I got a txt from my bf with a message that was not meant for me. When I inquired about who the message was intended for he responded vaguely and said "a friend from Orlando"...its no surprise to me that my bf doesn't always tell me every single detail of his life but for the first time after seeing the message i realized he keeps secrets. This song reminds me of a time long ago when my immaturity made me weak and in so it made me a person i didn't want to be. Someone who lied not only to benefit herself but to try and not hurt the ones she loved the most. I kept Secrets. After learning from my mistakes i said i would never do this in any other relationship i would ever be in, and till this day I have kept that promise to myself. The problem is now the table has been turned on me and I am lost. The moment i saw that txt my heart fell to the ground, thought of him cheating on me or tearing my heart apart. I needed to take a step back and trust him. I needed to realize he has friends and its ok for him to go meet with them without me. Simply because we think a certain way and knowing that I for one would not go anywhere else without telling him, he is not me and this is one of those secrets that most likely is harmless, and my mind is merely playing a sick game with me. Sometimes we tend to over analyze and dramatize the simplest things because our lives are boring like the songs says. Well for the most part mine is lol...but i thrive on the happy moments so there is no longer that need for secrets and lies to make my life thrilling. I have enough drama lol...the other aspect of the song is that it basically tells people tell me what you want to hear, anyone who knows me knows I am literally and open book...so if you have a question simply ask it...you wont get a lie and I will def tell you a ll my secrets until my sleeve stains red. It is important to reflect and not jump to conclusions when we are faced with a situation that takes us out of our day to day mind set. So ask away no secrets here =)